I think the title mainly says it all… yeah, I’m feeling sorry for myself. I’m feeling sorry for feeling so alone.
My mind is telling me that I shouldn’t need someone else to feel happy and yet my heart is crying out for someone.
When you sit alone in your room with only your thoughts for company, well, it gets a bit much after a while. But I think this has been spurred on by something else.
Maybe sarah’s impending relationship?
Yeah, hit the nail on the head there. I told myself things would be different here. Boys would be interested. But a change of venue doesn’t change my attractiblity, which is apparently currently at zero.
She told me about the romance of the moment, how he’d kissed her and it had just happened. My heart yearned just a little. I think I’ve been content maybe a little bit too long. I’m anything but content now.
I just wonder, do I have to change myself to be admirable? If I do it’s not me that is attractive, it’s a facade of me. Will the hollowness of that lie feel as hollow as this? Is that worth it?
